this is a page I made expecially for selling my plushies. I will answer questions you have on the plushies as well as keeping everyone up to date by posting pictures of made and sent plushies and pictures of plushies being made. I may even make a video or two about my plushies. enjoy!my actualy tumblr; singitout-.tumblr.com
let me put my poems in you. (Taken with instagram)
holding hands is one of my favourite things ever. I think when two people hold hands they make a special connection, they build a bond with eachother for those few moments, and for those few seconds or minutes or hours, nothing can break that bond. whether its holding hands with a friend, a family member, a significant other or even for some reason with someone you may barely know, you can instantly feel a connection made. when I hold your hand I feel something huge happen, and I don’t know what it is, but I just feel 100% safe having you holding it. whenever i’m with you all I instantly want to do is hold your hand, and any chance I get i’ll hold it straight away. you mightn’t like holding my hand, but I think it makes you feel safer too, and if you can keep me safe I can keep you safe too. I get this strange buzz when I hold your hand, as if there’s some strange energy running through you to me, and me to you. I hope someday I can hold your hand anytime that I want to, because then I know i’d always be safe.
My newest tattoo.
I fell in love with a similar looking design nearly a year ago and thought it was wonderful, I knew I would need it tattooed on myself. I have been obsessed with Queen and Freddie Mercury for so long, and to have my idol tattooed on me in such a beautiful way, with a perfect old school design and colouring has made me so happy. Would like to send out a huge thankyou to Stefan Getty for giving me this tattoo, words can’t describe how in love I am with it and how happy I am.
The tattoo was completed yesterday at the Dublin Tattoo Convention.
Everyone please check out Stefan’s amazing work.
how is it that you can kiss someone and feel nothing at all and then kiss someone else and feel more then you’ve ever felt your whole life? I think everyone has that one person in their life that changes everything. they change they way you look at your life, the way you look at the people in it, and they make you change for the better. its funny how you can find this person who helps you find you with just one little kiss. we can kiss someone, and be completely infatuated with how they look or who they are in the world, and feel nothing, it just feels like a daily routine thing that we do, even though its not. then we can kiss someone and for those few seconds that the kiss lasts, our whole world just stops. our mind completely clears and we feel indestructible for that short moment in time. that one person can literally take our breath away by performing such a simple action. a kiss like this feels like nothing you’ve ever felt before, it feels like theres a weight pushing down on your chest, and you’re literally struggling to keep your breath, you stop and pull away, and take a deep breath in. theres never a moment in my life when I haven’t got a million things on my mind, and when you find that one person, that just takes all of your pain away, and makes your mind go empty just by kissing you, I think thats such a wonderful thing. I think if you feel this when you kiss someone, that you need to hold on to that person and never let them go, because these kind of kisses are real kisses, those kind of kisses are the kisses that make people fall in love.
last night.
start of the night with christine locked, end of the night with matt fucking hammered.
I love how my make-up just completely fucks itself up.
BEST NIGHT AND BEST PEOPLE <3
Today it is exactly a year since I saw My Chemical Romance play live in the O2 arena Dublin. At this exact time (12pm) I would have been queuing for 17 hours so far, The queue has gotten huge over the last few hours, its cold and its damp and everyone that seemed to be happy and excited hours ago are feeling sick and are now moaning, where as I am still running on pure excitement. By this point i’ve got the worst sicky feeling in the stomach ever, I’ve had a few panic attacks and freakouts, and smoked my weight in cigarettes. I’ve made so many friends in the queue and although they are all lovely I trust absolutely no one, today I look out for myself and only myself. By this time I have no clue that I will get that front row place in front of Frank, I have no clue that I’ll be acknowledged by my hero, that I will receive his skeleton glove, or that my life would drastically change after this concert.
Up until the 16th of February 2011 I had been going through some really rough things. 2009 and 2010 had been really horrible, and within those 2 years I went through life changing things that no person, yet alone no young teenage girl should go through. I was 16 when I saw MCR play that night, and I had grown up quicker then any other 16 year old that I knew, because I had to. But for that one night, I found myself coming back to myself, and actually living the way I should have been living, I was carefree and acting my own age for once. I had been battling depression for over 2 years at this point, and I had been struggling with self harm especially bad over the previous few months. I did not have anything to live for, I wanted to die, every day was a struggle. I think If My Chemical Romance hadn’t announced that tour date when they did, I would have definitely killed myself. That tour date announcement was my little bit of hope that I held on to, It was the only thing that kept me going.
It didn’t hit me that I would be seeing them for months, it took up until a month before the gig til it hit me. I was sat in my room, and I was just listening to music and drawing, and it hit me. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was seeing my idols live for the second time, (the first time being 2007) I was seeing the one band that have always meant more to me then anything else, that had already gotten me through so much since first listening to them in 2006, the band of heroes that had already saved so many people’s lives.
I never expected to be saved at their gig. I was the first person let in to the arena, I was the first person to take my place in front of the stage, I was going to be the person that was right in front of Frank Iero. As soon as I got that placing I started welling up. I remember being really spaced out, I wasn’t listening to what my friends were saying to me, I just wanted to see MCR in front of me. I enjoyed Lost Alone and The Blackout as always, but I felt like I wasn’t fully there the whole time.
Finally after the suspense of the curtain and the screaming of fans, the lights went out. The whole arena was in complete darkness except for the two big screens, which were lit up by promo pictures for the album. The moment that booming voice started “Look Alive Sunshine” I lost it. I burst out crying, and for someone that has a fear of crying in public, this was a huge deal to me. Most of my friends hadn’t seen me cry, and now with my luck of being put up on the big screen multiple times, thousands of people were going to see my cry.
We all know what happened after this point, and if you don’t know, i’ll leave a link to the original blog post about that day underneath. This blog post was supposed to be about my progress since the gig, where as its really been a reflection on that day, and my feelings about it.
Since the 16th of February 2011 things really have changed so much. As cliche as it sounds, My Chemical Romance DID save my life that night. The tiny gesture that probably meant so little to Frank, meant the absolute world to me. Since seeing MCR I haven’t self harmed, with the exception of 2 small relapses. My scars have faded more and even though they’ll never fade fully I won’t look at them in disgust, I’ll look at them as a reminder that I have become a stronger person, I have become a much better person, with thanks to My Chemical Romance.
The night of the gig I had “I am not afraid to keep on living” written on my arm covering my scars, and originally I wanted to get it tattooed on me in Frank Iero’s handwriting. Seeing as that may never happen, and if it does it would take years to achieve, I have decided to get it tattooed in normal script. I would have loved to be booked in to get it done today, as it would have meant so much more to me, but with the lack of money I sadly couldn’t. But next months when I come home from spain I will be getting it done. I can’t wait to have those lyrics that made me realise that life if worth living marked on my skin forever, I know the words that saved my life is something I will never regret.
Since the gig other things have happened. I saw MCR play live at Oxegen Festival during the summer, and after stranding in the rain for nearly 12 hours, I was front row again in front of Frank Iero. He acknowledged me again, and when he changed guitars to play The Only Hope and Kids, he had my skeleton glove that I had given him sewn onto the back of that guitar strap. He also had it on while he played itunes festival. It was something that he didn’t have to do, but did. Yet another small gesture that gave someone like me so much hope.
I’ll forever be grateful to Frank Iero for saving my life. People may say i’m stupid or childish or that MCR are a “suicide cult” or whatever they want to say, but I am living proof that My Chemical Romance save lives, and I will say to you all yet again, that if you let them, My Chemical Romance will save your life too.
No Hate Please, if you have nothing nice to say don’t say anything at all.
Original Blog Post; http://singitout-.tumblr.com/post/13517754686/frank-iero-officially-saved-my-life-for-good-last
“I don’t wanna make it, I just wanna…”
(Source: dearashhhling)
